Just as I am...... Still?

How can this be?

What's going on inside of me?

My thoughts, My actions...

The love I once had...
Where did it go?

The dedication, the Drive..

I never felt I had to hide.

But,

Now my heart hurts.

My life burns before my eyes!

I'm tired... I'm worn...

The questions, the doubt,
it all floods my mind.

I cannot see the end this time.

You reached down for me once,

In the dirt,
                   muck,
                              and strife,

you restored my life.

Are you still there?

Do you still hear my prayer?

Am I one of the many... Who seem to be fooled?

Or am I one of the few who are equipped and tooled?

One who stays true,

Wholly devoted to you?
Unwavering, relentless in study,

Constant in prayer?

When I knock, will You open the Door?

Will I be allowed in?
Despite all that knocks me to the floor?

Will you still pick me up now that I've fallen again?
Where do I start? I know not where to begin..

I'm here now... Is that a start?
I wish to give you my heart!
May I walk with you?
Or sit here by your side?
My heart longs to be close, and I wish not to hide.

In my tears I can hear you speaking to me.
Come closer my child, My grace is sufficient for thee!
Trust Me now, come take my hand.
I wont let you go. In My strength.. You can stand!